People say it’s seeking attention when I disagree with their compliments, but to me I just see everything in a different perspective. I feel like these people are just trying to make me feel better, say things because they think they have too. But it’ll never matter because what the mirror shows me, is the only “opinion” that matters. I don’t want the attention, it’s a problem I have within myself, and it’ll probably never go away.
Someone told me recently “you’ll find someone one day who will make you feel beautiful.” That’s hard for me to believe because the one person that did without trying is gone, and the one person that would spend his whole life trying to prove it to me I push away.
I’m a wreck, a sinking ship, a horrible person/friend, and already dead on the inside.